I’m sitting here in an old, tattered sweater, wrapped in a blanket, trying to fight off whatever sickness has decided to settle in this week. My body feels weak, but it’s my heart that feels heavier today. It’s Sunday, my favorite day of the week, and instead of being in church or spending the afternoon with my daughter and my grandchildren like I usually do, I’m sitting here alone, listening to the quiet.
Sundays have become sacred to me, not just because I get to worship in God’s house, but because of what usually comes after. The familiar rhythm of spending time with my daughter and grands, the sound of little feet running through my living room, my daughter’s laughter mixing with mine. Those moments have become a reflection of God’s goodness and grace, a living reminder of how He restored a closeness between us that I once thought might never be.
We haven’t always been this close. For years, I prayed that God would heal what was broken between us, that He would bridge the distance that seemed too wide for me to cross on my own. And now, after all that waiting and hoping, He’s done it. My daughter isn’t just my child anymore; she’s one of my dearest friends, my encourager, and often the one who understands me best, especially spiritually. When I share what I believe the Lord has spoken to me, she doesn’t question or doubt. She listens, she believes, and she cheers me on. She’s the one I reach out to when God shows me something new, the one who reminds me to keep pressing forward.
And now she’s leaving.
She and her husband have sold their house. Soon they’ll be packing up their lives and moving two states away with my two precious grandchildren. I’ve known this was coming since the spring when she first told me their plans. I had my time of tears then, days of trying to process what it would mean to have them so far away, but I told her what I meant with all my heart: that she needed to do what she felt God was leading her to do, and that I supported her fully. I still do. But now that the move is real, and the countdown has begun, the ache has found its way back to my heart in a deeper way.