It’s that time again. Time to check in with you all and let you know what’s been going on with my health journey.

I honestly can’t remember the last time I stepped on the scale, so I have no idea what my current weight is or whether I’ve lost anything at all. What I can tell you is that my clothes still fit about the same as they did last month. So, if I’ve lost or gained anything, my guess is that it probably hasn’t been much.

This past month has been difficult because I’ve spent a good portion of it sick. Allen went on a business trip and, when he came home, he brought something with him. It wasn’t a souvenir. It was some kind of cold, maybe covid, but he wasn't tested, so we don’t know exactly what it was. Needless to say, he passed whatever it was on to me and my son.

I was out of work for three and a half days, and when I went back, I still wasn’t 100%. A few weeks later, I’m still not completely back to normal. And ironically, as I’m writing this, Allen is on another business trip. I’m praying, and I hope you’ll pray with me, that if he brings something home this time, it will be an actual souvenir.

Yesterday morning, while I was getting ready, I heard a passage from Mark that I have read many times before. But something about it caught my attention differently.

I began thinking about obedience.

Not simply following rules. Not doing what we have always been taught to do. Not checking all the boxes that make us feel like we are living a good Christian life.

Obedience.

There is a difference.

When Tradition and Obedience Collide

Sometimes what God asks us to do will line up perfectly with what we have been taught. Sometimes tradition can be beautiful. It can help us remember what matters, preserve what is good, and point us toward Christ.

But what happens when tradition and obedience to God don't line up?

What happens when something we've always done, always believed, or always been told is right begins to stand in the way of what God has actually commanded?

Jesus addressed this very thing with the Pharisees in Mark 7.

Last week, I was driving to work when a song came on that I had never heard before. It was “Have to Have You” by Circuit Rider Music. I wasn't expecting anything significant to happen during my morning drive. I was simply on my way to work, thinking about the day ahead.

But then I heard these words: “You take my yes and You give me friendship. It's by Your grace I know I couldn't earn this. Wanna obey You. I wanna serve You. There's nothing You could ask for that I wouldn't do.”

I had to sit with those words, not because I disagreed with them, but because I wondered if I could honestly say them. Do I really feel this way about God? Do I truly live this way? Do I really have the kind of relationship with Him where I could say, “There is nothing You could ask of me that I wouldn't do”? Or do I love God until loving Him becomes inconvenient? Do I trust Him until trusting Him requires something from me? Do I surrender until surrender costs me something?

Those questions followed me long after the song ended, and honestly, they made me look back.

I know what it feels like to have a new love for Jesus. When I first gave my life to Him, there was a tenderness in my relationship with God that is difficult to put into words. I was overwhelmed by grace. I was overwhelmed by mercy. I was overwhelmed by the realization that He knew everything about me and loved me anyway.

It was a Sunday morning, and I was getting ready for church. I had tuned in to watch Jentezen Franklin, expecting to hear him preach that morning. But before the service got underway, something unexpected happened. Jentezen, right there on stage, asked his guest, Reggie Dabbs, to preach instead.

I had no idea when I turned on that service that God was about to use a message I wasn't expecting to lead me somewhere I wasn't expecting to go.

Reggie told a story about a king.

The King Who Took His Child's Place

The king was known throughout his kingdom as a man who was both loving and just. His people knew he cared deeply for them, but they also knew that when his laws were broken, there were consequences.

Then someone began stealing from the king.

The king ordered his people to find the thief and bring him to justice. A punishment was established, but before they could find the person responsible, the stealing happened again.

The king increased the punishment and again ordered them to find the thief.

Still, the stealing continued.

When Progress Feels Slow

I have to admit, this month's update is difficult for me to write.

Not because something terrible has happened, but because sometimes the hardest part of a journey is continuing to hope when you aren't seeing the progress you expected.

Since my last update, there hasn't been much physical change. My weight is the same. My clothing size is the same. I'm still walking most nights, weather permitting, and I'm thankful that walking has become a regular part of my life.

A few weeks ago, I noticed an increase in my energy, and that gave me hope. I thought maybe my body was finally beginning to respond. But that improvement has leveled off, and I'm still waiting to see the changes I've been praying and working toward.

I have labs scheduled this week to check my thyroid levels, followed by my appointment with my doctor next week. I'm hopeful that we'll learn more and have a better understanding of what my body needs.

I know that feeling better is progress.

I know that maintaining instead of gaining is progress.

I know that taking walks most nights is progress.

But if I'm being completely honest, I still wish there were more.

And I think it's okay to admit that.

Yesterday morning, on the way to work, I caught a glimpse of something behind the fog.

At first, I wasn't sure what I was seeing. There was a faint bit of color in the distance. I looked again, trying to make sense of it. Was there really a rainbow there, or was I imagining it?

So I kept looking. And the longer I looked, the more I could see it.

There was a rainbow behind the fog.

It wasn't big or bold. It was simply there, quietly tucked behind the haze. It piqued my interest. It made me hopeful. It made me joyful. Maybe it was because it was my birthday. Maybe it was simply because there is something about seeing unexpected beauty that makes us stop for a moment. Whatever the reason, I knew I didn't want to forget it.

As I thought about that little bit of color, I realized I had found what I wanted to write about for today. I had been thinking about today's blog for the past few days, but I hadn't known what I was going to write about. Nothing had really settled on my heart.

And then I saw the hint of a rainbow.

It felt like a gift. Not just because God had given me something to write about, but because He had given me something to think about.

I have been wanting to write this for the past couple of weeks. Honestly, I have been eager to tell people about what happened. I already shared it with some of my family and friends because I simply could not keep it to myself, but I needed to handle a few other things first. But here it is—finally.

Sometimes God does something that you just cannot stop talking about. Granted, He does amazing things all the time that go totally unnoticed and unappreciated—things we really ought to be shouting from the rooftops. But there are those specific moments when you are simply bursting at the seams, and you just have to share it.

You have to testify. You have to stop dead in your tracks and say, “Look what the Lord has done.”

A couple of weeks ago, God reminded me loud and clear: He hears us. He is always listening.

Not just during the big, life-altering prayers. Not just during the heavy cries we let out when our whole world feels like it is crashing down.

He hears the small prayers, too.

He hears the quiet ones we mutter under our breath while folding a mountain of laundry. He hears the quick prayers we send up while idling in the school pick-up line. He hears the things we pray for ourselves, and every single thing we lift up for the people we love.

And sometimes, He answers in ways that leave us completely floored by His goodness. But honestly, why are we ever surprised? He is such an incredible Father who constantly pours His love over His children.

A few weeks ago, our pastor finished a series on Hebrews 12:1–3. He ended the series by talking about what it means to run the race of faith with endurance, keeping our eyes on Jesus.

The imagery of running made perfect sense.

But as I listened, the Lord began putting something a little different on my heart.

Walking.

If you've been following along on my health journey, you already know that my husband and I have been walking most evenings lately.

And somewhere along the way, I started realizing that walking is a pretty good picture of our relationship with God. I've heard people refer to their "walk with God" all of my life. Now it clicked.

Walking isn't just about the physical act. It's about building endurance, becoming stronger, taking time to reflect, and having the determination to keep moving forward.

And isn't that what our walk with God requires, too?

One step at a time.

If you’ve been following along with my health journey, you know that this has been about much more than losing weight.

When I started sharing this journey, I honestly didn’t know what was going on with my body. I just knew I was tired. Really tired. I had very little energy, I was struggling to lose weight, and when I did manage to lose a few pounds, they seemed to find their way right back.

I knew something wasn’t right. I just didn’t know what.

Well, over the last month, I’ve learned quite a bit.

And some of what I’ve learned has been difficult to share.

"Let us consider one another in order to provoke love and good works, not neglecting to gather together, as some are in the habit of doing, but encouraging each other, and all the more as you see the day approaching." — Hebrews 10:24-25 (CSB)

If you asked one hundred people why they go to church, you would likely receive one hundred different answers.

Some go because they love Jesus and want to know Him more, while others enjoy worshiping alongside fellow believers. Parents often attend to give their children a biblical foundation, whereas others show up simply because a spouse, friend, or family tradition brought them through the doors—or because they are navigating a difficult season of life.

Ask another one hundred people why they don't go to church, and you will hear an equally diverse mix of reasons. Some have been deeply hurt by church members, while others struggle with doubt or view Christians as hypocrites. Some disagree with biblical teachings on important cultural issues, while others are simply exhausted after a long week and view Sunday as their only day to rest. Others carry lingering anger toward God over unanswered prayers or painful circumstances.

A few days ago, a video appeared in my social media feed that I don't believe was there by accident.

It showed people living on the streets in Pennsylvania. Some were unconscious on the sidewalks. Others wandered through the streets, clearly under the influence of drugs. One person had to be resuscitated. There were people lying on the pavement while others simply walked around them as if it had become normal.

I couldn't look away.

Not because it was entertaining or sensational, but because it broke my heart.

As I watched, I found myself praying the same words over and over again: "God, help them." "Lord, please help them."

I truly believe God allowed that video to cross my path for a reason. He wasn't showing me strangers to judge. He was showing me people He loves, people created in His image, and people living in bondage. And He was reminding me that behind every addiction, every overdose, every person sleeping on a sidewalk, or every person holding a cardboard sign at an intersection, there is a soul that Jesus died to save.

That video didn't leave me feeling hopeless.

It left me asking one question: How did they get here?

"For He knows our frame; He remembers that we are dust." — Psalm 103:14 (ESV)

A Moment I Didn't Expect

The other day, I was listening to my Bible app while getting ready. I had reached the book of Psalms and was simply enjoying letting God's Word fill my heart as I went about my morning.

Then, one particular psalm reminded me of my brother. I found myself reflecting on his life and all the ways God has been at work. One thought naturally led to another, and before I even realized what had happened, my mind had wandered.

A few moments later, I suddenly realized something: the Bible was still playing. At least two entire psalms had been read, and I hadn’t heard a single word.

If you have ADHD, you’ve likely experienced this. It isn’t intentional. It just... happens. My first reaction was guilt. I almost reached over to rewind the audio because I felt like I had somehow failed at spending time with God.

Finding Rhythm Again

Since my last update, a lot has happened. After Allen and I returned home from our RV vacation, we started walking together nearly every evening. It didn't take long for me to realize how much I enjoyed those walks; we talked about our day, laughed together, and simply enjoyed spending time outside. Those walks gave me hope. For the first time in a while, I could see a healthier future and picture myself feeling stronger and having more energy. It felt like I was finally getting back on track.

An Unexpected Obstacle

Then life took an unexpected turn. While we were on vacation, I found two ticks on me. When I realized that one of them had been attached for quite some time, I immediately prayed and asked God to protect me from getting a tick-borne disease. Many years ago, I had Rocky Mountain Spotted Fever, and I had no desire to go through something like that again. But about a week after we got back from vacation, I noticed a rash around the bite, and three days after that, Allen took me to the emergency room with a fever, headache, and extreme fatigue. To make a long story short, I spent a solid week in bed.

(If you'd like to read the full story, you can read my blog, "Resting in His Faithfulness: Trusting God When Life Takes an Unexpected Turn.")

When was the last time you heard a sermon on fasting? For many of us, the answer is probably, "It’s been a long time," or perhaps, "Never."

We hear countless messages about prayer, Bible study, and serving others—all essential parts of our walk with Christ. Yet, one spiritual discipline is often overlooked. When we mention fasting, people tend to have mixed reactions. Some are curious, others feel intimidated, and many assume it's only for those who are "especially spiritual."

But biblical fasting is so much more than skipping meals. It is a holy rhythm woven throughout the lives of God's people—a way to move from the frantic pace of the world into the quiet, steady presence of the Lord.

Fasting Doesn't Change God—It Changes Us

One of the greatest misunderstandings about fasting is believing that it changes God’s mind. It doesn't. Fasting changes us. It quiets the constant demands of our flesh and reminds us that our greatest need isn't physical nourishment—it's the presence of God.

As Jesus said in Matthew 4:4:

"It is written: ‘Man shall not live on bread alone, but on every word that comes from the mouth of God.’"

These words remind us that while our bodies need food, our souls need something far greater. Fasting is the deliberate act of choosing that "greater" thing.

Last week, for the first time since I started this website, I didn’t share a new post. While that might seem like a small detail to some, it felt like a significant break in the rhythm I’ve grown to love. I’ve always tried to show up here faithfully every week, but last week, my body simply wouldn’t allow it. I found myself sidelined, spending most of those days in bed, feeling far too weak to write, study, or even think clearly.

Sometimes, life has a way of interrupting our plans, reminding us that we aren't as in control—or as strong—as we might like to think.

A Lesson in Unexpected Surrender

During a recent camping trip, I discovered a tick attached to me. I didn’t think much of it at first; I removed it and immediately prayed for protection. But a week later, the area became red and tender. What began as a simple concern quickly escalated, and before my doctor's appointment arrived, I found myself in the emergency room with severe symptoms.

I’ve been tested for several tick-borne diseases. So far, the results have been negative, for which I am incredibly thankful. My doctor will continue to run tests, as we are still searching for answers, but as I write this, I am resting in one profound truth: God has been faithful.

A Health Journey Rooted in Faith

If I’m being honest, friends, this past month has been the hardest one yet.

When I started this journey, I knew there would be challenges. I knew there would be good weeks and difficult weeks. What I didn’t fully realize was how much this journey would reveal about my habits, my priorities, and my need for God's help in areas where I've often relied on myself.

One of the biggest struggles this month has been the amount of overtime I’ve been working. It isn't new for me, but lately there has been much more of it than usual. Not only has that limited my time, but it has also left me feeling physically and mentally exhausted. It's hard to come home after a long day of extra hours and feel motivated to do much of anything.

But if I'm being completely honest, time isn't the only issue. I’ve realized my biggest struggle hasn't been the exercise—it's been the food. It feels like I’m hungry all the time lately. Even when I try to make healthier choices, I find myself thinking about food more than I ever have before. Some days I do well, and other days I don't. I haven't quite figured out why this has become such a challenge, but it has. It’s a stark reminder of 1 Corinthians 6:19-20: "Do you not know that your bodies are temples of the Holy Spirit, who is in you, whom you have received from God? You are not your own; you were bought at a price. Therefore, honor God with your bodies." 

“Here I am! I stand at the door and knock. If anyone hears My voice and opens the door, I will come in and eat with that person, and they with Me.” — Revelation 3:20

Imagine for a moment that your life is a house. It may be a beautiful home filled with memories, hopes, dreams, and treasures. Some rooms are bright and welcoming, while others are cluttered and neglected. A few may even remain locked tightly, hidden away from the rest of the world.

Now, imagine Jesus standing at the front door.

Most of us gladly invite Him inside. We welcome Him into the foyer, proudly show Him the spaces that seem presentable, and let Him walk through the areas where we feel confident and comfortable. But what about the rooms we keep closed? What about the spaces we don't want anyone—not even our Savior—to see?

The truth is that many Christians have invited Jesus into their lives, but not into every part of their lives. We give Him access to certain public rooms while quietly keeping private ones locked. Yet Jesus desires far more than a polite visit; He desires complete lordship. He does not want to simply occupy a guest room in our hearts. He wants to be fully at home in every single corner of our lives.

Let's walk through a few of those hidden rooms together.

A few years ago on Thanksgiving Day, after a glorious meal, I found myself sitting in the living room with my dad and brother. Like many families do during the holidays, we were talking about life. It wasn't too long before the conversation turned toward something deeper: the Bible, faith, and our relationship with God.

As I listened and participated in the discussion, I felt a quiet stirring in my heart.

I had been a Christian for years. I knew who Jesus was, I knew the truth of Scripture, and I truly believed in Him. But somewhere along the way, I had become comfortable. My faith wasn't absent, but it wasn't active either. I wasn't intentionally pursuing God, I wasn't spending time with Him the way I should have been, and I wasn't living with the same passion and surrender I once possessed.

In that quiet moment, God gently opened my eyes. I realized I needed to come back—not because God had left me, but because I had drifted.

That Thanksgiving conversation became a major turning point in my life. If I'm being completely honest, it wasn't the first second chance God had given me; it probably wasn't even the tenth. But it was the most recent, and one of the most significant. Looking back now, I see what a gift that moment was. It was another invitation from a loving Father who never stopped pursuing me.

And perhaps that is exactly what you need to hear today. If you are a woman who feels a million miles away from where you used to be, please know this: God is still in the business of giving second chances.

As I sit writing this on Memorial Day, my heart feels especially reflective.

By the time you are reading this, Memorial Day will have already passed. The cookouts will be over. The flags may no longer line the streets. Families will return to work, school, and everyday routines. But I pray the meaning behind this day does not fade as quickly as the holiday itself.

Because Memorial Day is about remembering.

Yesterday, our nation paused to honor the brave men and women who laid down their lives so that others could live in freedom. Across America, flowers were placed beside gravestones, names were spoken with honor, and hearts reflected on the cost of freedom.

There is something deeply sacred about that kind of remembrance.

Freedom is costly. It was never free. Behind every freedom we enjoy stands someone who was willing to risk, and often give, their life.

A Health Journey Rooted in Faith

It’s time for another honest update.

When I started this journey last month, I said I wanted this to be real. Not polished. Not perfect. Just honest accountability and inviting God into the process with me.

So here’s the truth about this past month.

The first week started off really well. I felt motivated and encouraged. I worked out about three days that week, and three days my husband and I went for walks together. It felt good to finally be moving again and intentionally trying to care for myself. There was a part of me that thought, Maybe this is it. Maybe this is the time I finally stay consistent.

Then came week two.

I started slowing down some. I only worked out twice that week, although Allen and I still walked about three days. And I noticed something about myself almost immediately, how quickly one missed day can turn into another if I’m not careful. It’s almost like once I break rhythm, it becomes easier to talk myself out of starting again the next day.

There is a specific kind of silence that accompanies true transformation. It isn’t the explosive, overnight change we often see in cinematic montages. It’s quieter. It’s the realization that happens in the middle of a mundane Tuesday—perhaps while you’re folding laundry, driving to work, or reacting to a stressful situation—where you suddenly pause and think, The "old me" would have handled this very differently.

Growth is often a stealthy traveler. We spend so much time praying for change, striving for "better," and mourning our perceived stagnancy that we miss the microscopic shifts in our souls. But then comes the moment of clarity: the realization that you are no longer who you used to be.

The Anatomy of Quiet Transformation

Most of us expect growth to feel like a victory lap, but it often feels more like a shedding. In the natural world, growth is frequently preceded by a season of dormancy or a breaking of the shell.

Transformation is rarely about adding more to our lives; it is almost always about God peeling back the layers of self-protection, pride, and old habits to reveal something more authentic beneath. This process is beautifully echoed in 2 Corinthians 5:17:

"Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, the new creation has come: The old has gone, the new is here!"

This "newness" isn't just a change in behavior; it’s a change in essence. The moment you realize you’ve changed, you aren't just seeing a "better version" of yourself—you are seeing the evidence of a Spirit-led renovation.

There are moments in life when healing is no longer just a hopeful thought. It becomes a deep, desperate need. Not just for ourselves, but for the people we love. The kind of need that brings us to our knees, that fills our prayers with tears, and that presses us closer to the heart of God.

Recently, I have found myself in that place. Two dear friends I have known since my teenage years are both walking through seasons where healing is needed. One situation feels more urgent and visible. The other may not appear as serious on the surface, but it carries just as much weight. And both matter deeply to God.

At different times, in separate conversations, I told each of them something that has been on my heart. I told them that I am doing what the faithful friends did in Mark 2. I am, in faith, carrying them to Jesus and lowering them down right in front of Him.

"When Jesus saw their faith, he said to the paralytic, ‘Son, your sins are forgiven.’" (Mark 2:5)

It wasn’t just the faith of the man who needed healing that moved Jesus. Scripture tells us that Jesus saw their faith. The faith of the friends. The ones who refused to let obstacles stop them. The ones who climbed the roof, tore it open, and made a way where there was none.

There are prayers I have prayed so many times, I could say them without thinking. The words feel familiar now, like a path my heart has walked again and again. Some have been whispered through tears. Some have been spoken boldly in faith. Others have been quieter, more hesitant, wondering if God is listening… or if He has already said no.

And still, I find myself waiting.

Waiting is one of the hardest parts of faith. Not because we doubt that God is able, but because we don’t always understand His timing. We know He can. We believe He cares. But when the answer doesn’t come, or doesn’t come the way we hoped, questions begin to rise.

God, do You see me?
Do You hear me?
Are You still working… even here?

In Psalm 13:1–2, David cries out, “How long, Lord? Will You forget me forever?” His words are honest and unfiltered, yet they are still directed toward God. He didn’t walk away in his waiting. He stayed, even in the tension.

A Health Journey Rooted in Faith

If I’m being honest, this feels a little vulnerable to write.

I’ve shared a lot about faith, surrender, obedience, and growing in the Lord. I’ve written about honoring God with my words, my thoughts, and my relationships. But there’s an area of my life that I haven’t given the same attention… and it’s one I can’t ignore anymore.

My body.

This is the beginning of something new for me. Not just a “weight loss journey,” because that feels too surface-level for what this really is. This is a health journey. A shift in how I care for what God has entrusted to me, and a decision to include Him in a place where I’ve often tried to rely on myself.

I also want this to be something I don’t hide from. So each month, I’ll come back and share an update. Not just progress, but struggles, lessons, and what God is showing me along the way. This is for encouragement, but also for accountability.

This really began in a quiet moment of prayer.

I was talking to God about this area of my life, asking Him to help me because I’ve tried to do this on my own recently and I haven’t been able to make any progress. And as I was praying, I found myself saying something out loud that I’ve known in my heart for a long time. I should be honoring Him with my body just as I’ve tried to honor Him in other areas of my life.

It wasn’t a heavy moment. It was just honest.

There are seasons in life when you catch your reflection and quietly wonder, Who is she?

Maybe it came after becoming a mother and your days no longer belong to you. Maybe it showed up in burnout, when your mind feels foggy and your heart feels distant. Maybe it followed a hard transition, a loss, a move, or a calling that stretched you in ways you did not expect.

You are still you, but something feels unfamiliar.

The things that once came easily now take effort. The joy you used to carry feels quieter. The confidence you once walked in seems to have slipped through your fingers.

And if we are honest, there is a quiet grief in it.

Because you are not just adjusting to change. You are trying to understand who you are in the middle of it.

But here is the truth that gently steadies us. While seasons shift, your identity in God does not.

There’s a phrase that has quietly become part of my everyday life over the past several months. It started out lighthearted, almost playful, something I would say without thinking too deeply about it.

There is a sacred quiet that lives between Good Friday and Easter Sunday.

It is the space where prayers seem unanswered.
Where hope feels buried.
Where heaven appears silent.

On Friday, Jesus cried out, “It is finished” (John 19:30), and with that, the sky darkened, the earth trembled, and the veil in the temple was torn from top to bottom (Matthew 27:51). It was dramatic. Visible. Undeniable.

But then came Saturday.

And Saturday looked like nothing.

No miracles.
No crowds.
No voice from heaven.
No movement at all.

Just stillness.

Just grief.

Just waiting.

And if we are honest, that is where many of us live more often than we would like to admit. Not at the foot of the cross, and not yet at the empty tomb, but somewhere in between. In the quiet. In the unknown. In the tension of not seeing what God is doing.

But what if that “nothing” was actually everything?

There is something about Palm Sunday that feels beautiful at first glance.

Jesus riding into Jerusalem. Crowds gathering. Palm branches lifted high. Voices rising together in what sounds like celebration.

It looks like worship. It sounds like praise. And in many ways, it is.

But underneath it all is something deeper. Something more personal. Because the word they were crying out was not just a song. It was not just a declaration.

It was a cry from the heart.

Hosanna.

In the bustling streets of Capernaum, the air was often thick with heat and the press of crowds. But in Mark 2:1–12, the atmosphere was charged with something else: a desperate, radical hope. We often read this story and focus on the miracle of the man walking, but for the modern woman navigating a fragmented and weary world, the real gold is found in the four friends who refused to take "no" for an answer.

This is a story about a community that carries what one person cannot hold alone. It is a blueprint for intercession and a call to a gritty, roof-breaking kind of perseverance.

The Audacity of Community

When Jesus returned to Capernaum, the word spread like wildfire. The house where He stayed was so packed that there was no room left, not even outside the door.

Enter the four friends. They weren’t just casual acquaintances; they were carriers. They carried a man who was paralyzed—someone who, in that culture, was likely marginalized and forgotten.

Genesis 17–21

When we think of faith, the story of Sarah often comes to mind. She’s a woman who experienced a promise that seemed utterly impossible. God told her she would bear a child in her old age—a promise that seemed too big, too late, too impossible by every human standard. And yet, Sarah’s journey reminds us that God’s promises are not limited by our circumstances, our timing, or even our doubts.

Faith Through Delay

Sarah’s story begins in Genesis 17, when God reaffirmed His covenant with Abraham. He promised that Sarah would give birth to a son, and through this child, God would establish a great nation. Sarah was well past the age of childbearing, and the reality of the promise seemed laughable. In fact, the Bible says, “Sarah laughed to herself, saying, ‘After I am worn out, and my lord is old, shall I have pleasure?’” (Genesis 18:12, ESV). Her laughter wasn’t just disbelief—it was a very human response to what seemed impossible.

Can you relate? Perhaps you’ve prayed and waited for a breakthrough, a marriage, a child, a reconciliation, a career, or a dream, and the waiting feels endless. Like Sarah, we wrestle with our doubts, and sometimes our faith falters. But Sarah’s story shows us that doubt does not disqualify us from God’s plan—it is often part of the journey toward trusting Him fully.

There is something sacred about a woman standing in her home, holding something small, and wondering if it could ever be enough.

In 2 Kings 4, we meet a widow in crisis. Her husband, a faithful servant of the Lord, has died. Debt has swallowed what little security she had left. The creditor is coming, and in that culture, that meant something unthinkable — her sons would be taken as payment.

Can you feel the panic in her voice when she cries out to Elisha?

“Your servant my husband is dead… and the creditor is coming to take my two sons as slaves.” (2 Kings 4:1)

This is not a gentle inconvenience. This is survival.

And yet, this story is not just about debt. It is about scarcity. It is about fear. It is about standing in your house looking around and thinking, I do not have enough.

There are seasons in a woman’s life that feel long.

Long prayers.
Long nights.
Long battles no one else sees.

In Mark 5, we meet a woman who had lived in one of those seasons for twelve years. Twelve years of bleeding. Twelve years of searching. Twelve years of hoping something would change.

Scripture tells us:

“She had suffered a great deal under the care of many doctors and had spent all she had, yet instead of getting better she grew worse.” (Mark 5:26)

This is not just a medical condition. This is a life unraveling.

There are seasons when life feels painfully uneventful.

No major breakthroughs.
No big announcements.
No obvious answers.

Just ordinary days filled with responsibilities, routines, and prayers that seem to disappear into quiet.

And if we are honest, those are the moments when doubt creeps in.

Is anything actually happening?
Is God moving at all?
Or am I just hoping He is?

If you have ever felt that tension, you are not alone. I am walking through it right now.

There are moments in life that feel loud and unmistakable. A miracle that stops us in our tracks. An answered prayer that leaves no doubt. A season where God’s presence feels obvious and overwhelming. But most of our lives are not lived in those moments. Most of our lives are lived quietly. In routines. In ordinary days. In the small things.

It is easy to believe God is faithful when the breakthrough finally comes, when the door swings wide open, or when the prayer we have prayed for years is answered all at once. But what about the days when nothing dramatic happens? What about the unseen faithfulness of God in the everyday details?

God is just as faithful in the small things as He is in the big ones. He is present in the ordinary. He is working in the background. He is weaving purpose into moments we might otherwise overlook.

This is a joy-filled reminder that our God does not only show up on mountaintops. He walks with us through kitchens, offices, classrooms, grocery store aisles, and hears quiet prayers whispered under our breath.

Rest sounds simple, but for many of us it feels anything but easy.

We live in a world that celebrates hustle, productivity, and constant motion. Many women carry visible and invisible responsibilities. We are caretakers, workers, mothers, daughters, wives, friends, leaders, servants, and helpers. Even when we sit down, our minds often keep running. There is always one more thing to do, one more person to check on, one more problem to solve.

So when God invites us to rest, it can feel uncomfortable. Even irresponsible. But Scripture tells us something surprising and deeply freeing. Rest is not laziness. Rest is an act of faith.

Rest Requires Trust

At its core, rest asks a hard question: Do I trust God to be God when I stop?

Psalm 127:2 says,
“It is useless for you to work so hard from early morning until late at night, anxiously working for food to eat; for God gives rest to his loved ones.” (NLT)

This verse gently reminds us that striving does not produce security. God does not bless exhaustion. He blesses trust. When we refuse to rest, we often believe that everything depends on us. Rest declares the opposite. It says God is working even when I am not.

For many women, rest feels risky because we are used to being needed. Faith steps back and says, Lord, I trust You to carry what I cannot.

There are seasons in life when it feels like God has tucked us away. The phone is quiet. The opportunities seem scarce. The prayers feel unanswered. We watch others step into visible callings while we remain unseen, unnoticed, and sometimes misunderstood. The hidden place can feel confusing, even painful, especially when we believe God has placed something meaningful inside us.

But Scripture shows us again and again that obscurity is not punishment. Often, it is preparation. God is intentional with timing, and He is purposeful with placement. When He chooses the hidden place, He does so with deep love and divine wisdom.

God Often Prepares Before He Reveals

One of the most comforting truths in the Bible is that God rarely promotes without first preparing. Long before David stood before Goliath, he was a shepherd boy tending sheep in fields no one noticed. Scripture tells us in 1 Samuel 16:11 that David was not even invited to the anointing at first. He was forgotten by his own family. Yet it was in that hidden pasture that David learned to worship, to fight lions and bears, and to trust God when no one was watching.

Psalm 78:70–72 says, “He chose David his servant and took him from the sheepfolds; from tending the sheep he brought him to be the shepherd of his people.” The public victory came after years of private faithfulness.

God does the same with us. He develops character before calling, depth before display, and faithfulness before fruitfulness.

If you sit with the Gospels long enough, you begin to notice something tender and unexpected about Jesus.

He asks questions.

Not the kind meant to put someone on the spot. Not questions asked to expose or embarrass. But thoughtful, patient questions. The kind that slow a moment down. The kind that feel personal.

This is striking when we remember who Jesus is. He is the Son of God. He knows every thought we have before we speak it (Psalm 139:2). He sees the end from the beginning. And yet, again and again, He looks at people and asks questions.

Scholars estimate that Jesus asked more than 300 questions throughout the Gospels. He answered very few directly. Instead, He invited people to wrestle, reflect, and respond.

Why?

Because Jesus was never interested in quick answers. He was always interested in hearts.

And He still is.

There is a quiet tension many faithful women carry. We love Jesus. We want to serve Him well. We say yes often. We show up early and stay late. And somewhere along the way, our calendars become full while our souls grow thin.

Every January arrives with a familiar pressure. New goals. New habits. New vision boards. A new you.

The world tells us the turning of the calendar is an invitation to reinvent ourselves, to fix what is broken, to leave behind the person we were and emerge as someone better, stronger, more disciplined, more impressive.

But what if the new year is not about becoming someone new at all?

What if it is about becoming more deeply who God already created you to be?

Scripture reminds us that transformation in Christ does not begin with self-reinvention but with surrender.

“Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation. The old has passed away; behold, the new has come.”
2 Corinthians 5:17

Notice this verse does not say we become a new creation every January. It says we are made new in Christ. That work is already done. The new year does not make us new. Jesus does.

So perhaps the invitation of a new year is not to strive for a new identity, but to walk more fully in the one we already have.

If we were sitting together right now, maybe at the kitchen table or over coffee, this is what I would want to tell you before the year comes to an end.

There are some Christmases that don’t feel the way they used to. Everything around us still looks like Christmas. The lights glow. The music plays. The plans move forward. But inside, something feels off. There is a dull ache in the heart that won’t quite lift, no matter how hard we try to feel cheerful.

This is one of those Christmases for me.

There is someone who won’t be with us this year. Not because of distance or loss, but because of brokenness. A disagreement that has created space where closeness used to be. And while I don’t need to share every detail, I need to be honest about the ache it leaves behind.

It doesn’t feel like Christmas the way it usually does.

And maybe you know this feeling too.

The Empty Place Hurts More During the Holidays

Christmas has a way of bringing absence to the surface. It highlights the empty chair. The missing laugh. The traditions that feel incomplete without certain people present.

You can love Jesus deeply and still feel this sadness. One does not cancel out the other.

We sometimes tell ourselves we should be more grateful, more joyful, more focused on the reason for the season. But God never asks us to ignore our pain in order to honor Him.

“The Lord is close to the brokenhearted.”
Psalm 34:18

Not disappointed in us. Not distant. Close.

By now, Christmas is no longer on the horizon. It is here. The tree is likely up. The lights are glowing. The calendar is full. There may still be gifts to buy, presents to wrap, meals to plan, and details to finish. And somewhere in the middle of it all, your heart may feel both full and tired.

If you are reading this with Christmas just over a week away, pause for a moment. There is no need to redo anything or add something new to your list. This is simply an invitation to turn your heart back toward Jesus, to lift your gaze above the noise, and to remember who stands at the center of this season, even in the midst of full days and busy moments.

A Christ-centered Christmas is not measured by how early we prepare or how well everything is planned. It is shaped by where our hearts rest, and that can be realigned at any moment.

Pause Where You Are

You do not need to step away from everything to reconnect with Jesus. You simply need to invite Him into the moment you are already in.

Whether you are wrapping gifts late at night, driving to finish shopping, or standing in your kitchen planning meals, Jesus is near.

“Behold, I am with you always.” Matthew 28:20

Take a quiet pause today. Even just a minute. Whisper His name. Thank Him for being there. Ask Him to steady your heart. Sometimes the most meaningful worship happens right in the middle of unfinished tasks.

There is a tender ache many women feel when December arrives. We want to enter this season with peace and joy, but we often end up carrying the weight of everything—plans, people, emotions, expectations, preparation, pressure, and the silent hope that we can somehow make the season meaningful for those we love.

And somewhere in the middle of all of it, the wonder we once felt can quietly slip away.

Childhood Christmases were full of awe. The lights shimmered. The air felt different. Every moment felt magical and full of possibility. But as the years pass, life layers itself over our hearts. Responsibilities multiply. Grief sneaks in. Busyness steals our focus. And suddenly the season that was supposed to awaken joy feels more like something that drains us before it delights us.

But the wonder of Christmas is not lost. It doesn’t disappear when we outgrow childhood—it simply hides beneath the layers of our overstretched, overscheduled, overwhelmed lives. And God, in His gentle way, invites us to see again.

Wonder isn’t childish. It’s spiritual. It’s what happens when the eyes of our heart wake up to the glory of God right where we are.

Christmas is not asking us to try harder. It is inviting us to look again—with fresh eyes.

There is nothing more beautiful than a woman who has turned back to God. Not because she has lived perfectly, but because she has finally come to the end of herself and discovered the mercy waiting for her there. Repentance is not a word of shame. It is a word of hope. It is the doorway back into the presence of the One who loves us more fiercely, faithfully, and patiently than we will ever comprehend.

For me, repentance is not theoretical. It is personal. Real. Transforming.

Last Thanksgiving, after years of running, resisting, rebelling, and trying to live life on my own terms, the Holy Spirit convicted me so clearly, so tenderly, so powerfully that I could no longer ignore Him. It wasn’t condemnation. It wasn’t God shaming me or pointing at my failures. It was conviction — that holy ache only the Spirit can produce. A piercing clarity that said, “This is sin, this is hurting you, and I am calling you home.”

And I came.

And in the year since, God has done more in my life than I ever imagined possible. He restored what rebellion had stolen. He planted what wandering had uprooted. He rebuilt what sin had broken. And He proved something I will never forget: God is unbelievably patient. He does not give up on His daughters. He calls and calls and calls — until, in His mercy, we finally turn and come running home.

That is the fruit of repentance.
And it is available to every woman who wants to return to Him.

There are seasons when our hearts feel barren and our prayers feel quiet. Seasons when we open our Bibles and the words feel distant. Seasons when worship feels like work instead of joy. These are the wilderness seasons, and every believer walks through them at different points in life.

The wilderness is not always a sign that something is wrong. In Scripture, it is often the place where God shapes His people, refines their faith, and strengthens their dependence on Him. It is the space between what God has promised and what God will do next. Yet the question remains:
How do we worship God when life feels dry?

The Bible gives us a clear and gentle roadmap for these seasons. God has always met His people in dry places, and He still does today. Together, we will explore what worship looks like in the wilderness so your heart can find hope again, even when your circumstances have not changed.

God Is With You in the Wilderness

The wilderness can make us feel isolated, but Scripture reminds us again and again that God draws near in lonely places.

Moses experienced this in Exodus 3 when God spoke to him in the wilderness from a burning bush. Elijah experienced this when he fled into the wilderness discouraged and exhausted in 1 Kings 19. God met him not with anger, but with a whisper.

There is no shortage of noise in our world today. Opinions swirl. Anger spreads fast. Social media is loud. Culture is loud. Even our own thoughts can become loud when life feels heavy. Yet in the middle of all this, Scripture gently reminds us that God has given every believer a voice, a calling, and a responsibility to speak words that carry the weight of heaven.

Your voice matters. Not because it is the loudest, but because it is grounded in truth. Not because it is perfect, but because it is surrendered to God. And not because the world listens, but because heaven does.

From the beginning, God has used ordinary people with willing hearts to carry extraordinary truth. Today He invites each of us to do the same.

The Power of Words in Scripture

The Bible is clear about the influence of our words. Proverbs 18:21 says, “Death and life are in the power of the tongue.” Words can plant seeds that grow into healing or harm. They can open doors or close them. They can reflect the heart of Christ or echo the noise of the world.

Jesus tells us in Matthew 12:34 that “out of the abundance of the heart the mouth speaks.” What we speak reveals who we belong to and what we believe. It exposes whether we are rooted in fear or faith, bitterness or grace, frustration or hope.

There are moments in every woman’s life when the ground feels like it’s shifting beneath her feet. It might be the first semester away at college, when the security of home fades into the unknown. It might be a weary mother’s heart wondering if she’ll ever find rest again. It might be the quiet ache of an empty house when the kids are grown, or the silent strength of a grandmother holding onto faith while praying for her family.

No matter where we are, life brings seasons that shake us. Yet God calls us to be women who are rooted, not shaken, women whose faith runs deep enough to withstand any storm.

"He is like a tree planted by water, that sends out its roots by the stream,
and does not fear when heat comes, for its leaves remain green,
and is not anxious in the year of drought, for it does not cease to bear fruit." — Jermiah 17:8

This is what it means to live anchored in Christ. Even when the winds blow, our roots hold steady because they are grounded in something unmovable. Someone eternal.

There are seasons in life when we feel unseen. You might be going through a difficult time, quietly struggling with challenges that no one seems to notice. Maybe you are working tirelessly at home or in your career, giving your heart and soul to others, yet no one seems to recognize your efforts. Or perhaps you are walking through a season of grief, loneliness, or doubt, and it feels as if the world has forgotten you.

If you have ever felt invisible or overlooked, I want to remind you today: God sees you. He has not forgotten you. In the quiet places of your life, when no one else is watching, God is present, attentive, and loving. He knows the deepest parts of your heart and notices even the smallest acts of faith and kindness.

The God Who Notices

One of the most comforting truths in Scripture is that God is intimately aware of our lives. Psalm 139:1-4 says:

"You have searched me, Lord,
    and you know me.
You know when I sit and when I rise;
    you perceive my thoughts from afar.
You discern my going out and my lying down;
    you are familiar with all my ways.
Before a word is on my tongue
    you, Lord, know it completely."